Accepting that chronic illness is my life. I've lost everything. No social life, no family. And I can't afford to do anything else.
It’s noon. I’ve been way too exhausted and sleep caught up with me. I slept the whole morning. I know I’ve been feeling off lately and going to bed later than usual hasn’t been helping. I still feel a little tired. The good news is that I feel more centered and less-scattered brain, confused, lost …
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I had a satisfying therapy session today but every other area of my life has no resolution. I’m tempted to write about the other areas of my life because I can’t get it off my mind, but I want to get therapy out of the way first. This is a new therapist. I did not …
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I was reading someone’s story: Living With Ehler Danlos is Hell. I had so many thoughts while reading their story. I wanted to try to write about it here to get some clarity on my life, but it is also the middle of the night! But my life has no sense of direction or meaning …
I just watched someone review a TLC show featuring a Tunisian guy who met a Canadian woman online. I had so many thoughts about what I saw that I don’t know where to start. But, ultimately, people’s reaction to this show left me feeling depressed, alone, upset, and hopeless. Some background: I’m in my mid-thirties …
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People act like they’re against death. Unless it’s my death. In that case, they couldn’t care less what happened to me. I’m not saying this because I imagine people don’t care about me, but because they straight said it to me. (Eg. “I’m only helping you out because of this other person I care about.” …
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